Christmas Day 2004

It's Christmas day 2004, and I thought I'd add to a blog entry. I haven't written one in almost two months now. My kids are napping after staying up late Christmas Eve and getting up early to see what Santa brought...

I am learning much better about "being" versus "doing." The original reason I think I started the blog was that some need to "do" something every day. Now, I'm becoming much better about just "being."

Some thoughts on how I want to "be..."

• Aware and insightful about my inner self
• Less stressed and just more accepting
• More journey-focused, not destination-focused
• Valued by family and friends
• Helpful

I've recognized I have a tendency to jump through hoops just to be those things. Why?

• To get less stressed, there's the logic to earn more money to feel more secure, but why not just feel secure?
• To get more insightful about myself, there's the logic to read more to facilitate discovery, but aren't all the answers already inside of us?
• What better way to get journey-focused than to start on the journey today?
• How can you be valued by family and friends or how can you be helpful if you aren't there?

This holiday season truly feels the best ever to me because for the first time in my life, I'm not looking "ahead" to the next thing (like when I graduate from school or when I'm getting the next promotion or etc. etc.), but instead just enjoying the "now."