Saturday, July 31, 2004

Notes from Northern California written ex post facto

Still catching up...

Day 5 - McKinleyville to Fort Bragg

The Holiday Inn Express in McKinleyville had a very warm swimming pool. On this day, though, I got to skip the main pool session as I was creating the first drop of our post cards. The Holiday Inn Express had a free continental breakfast (which I could not partake in because of the lack of low carb foods). I did end up watching a small pool session while my wife was showering because my younger daughter wanted to show me how she could jump in the pool and swim back to the side by herself with no help.

We visited the Sequoia Park Zoo in Eureka, CA that morning. It is very well done with flowers in the front, very nice displays, and a petting zoo. Admission is free, but we paid the "recommended" donation of $5 for the four of us. Overall, it was a very nice community park. The kids had fun!

Later, in Leggett, CA, we visited the Chandelier Tree in the Drive-Thru Tree Park. That constituted the highlight of the trip for my wife! (I was too gun-shy to drive through the tree myself, as I'd had that mishap with her van in my garage right before leaving...)

From Leggett, CA, the drive to Fort Bragg involves a windy drive down US-1. My older daughter got car sick (probably in part due to watching the DVD player with a 5" screen...)

We ended up eating at the North Coast Brewing Company that night. The food was good. I'm not sure I can evaluate the beer. I had a 10-sampler of the different beers, and I couldn't even finish them.

We stayed at the Ocean View Lodge. The place looks kind of like a dump from the outside, but the rooms are nice and they all truly do have 180 degree ocean views. The other bonus was that the set up was almost like two rooms, so my wife and I got to sleep somewhat separately from the kids that night.

The downside was that the kids were goofing around, and my younger daughter got a bloody nose that night. My wife did wake me up, and I applied some direct pressure to stop the bleeding. My daughter was fine, but blood got everywhere.



Day 6 - Fort Bragg to the Bay Area

The day was actually pretty uneventful. We got up, went to Denny's, filled up on gas, and started the journey. We made one stop at Brutocao Cellars to buy some gifts for people in the Bay Area and at home. Then, we went straight into Sausalito, under 101, and up to the Marin headlands where we took some pictures with the Golden Gate bridge as a backdrop. We paid the $5 to drive across the Golden Gate Bridge and then took 101 down into the Bay Area to set up "house" for the next 5 days or so...

Our house while we were gone...

There was one interested party that got very serious while we were gone. We still haven't gotten an offer yet, though.

The two concerns were:

  • Whether they could build a fence in our backyard to maintain privacy.
  • Our LP siding.

Things were kind of hot for a while with calls happening to our cell phones by the buyer's real estate agent while we were in Oregon. Since then, things have been kind of dead...

Lottery tickets and Keno...

OK, so we're still somewhat defying probability...

I bought a mega millions ticket on 7/24 for the recent drawing. I had my older daughter think about the numbers... 10 12 15 34 51 44. We matched 10 (the day of my wife's birthday!), as the drawn numbers were 8, 10, 11, 13, 24, 46. I still have continued a streak of matching at least one number on every lottery ticket that I've purchased.

Also, I had my daughters pick keno numbers when we were at Seven Feathers. The way it works is that there are eighty numbers, of which 20 are selected. Then, there are many games to play. I had my daughters pick 5 numbers. Each of them played twice, and once each of them matched 3 numbers getting their money back. I've got to believe that defies probability, but I haven't calculated the odds yet.

The other thing that was interesting was that I thought of playing just one number (my birthday - 17), and during both of those games, the number 17 was drawn (which would have paid out 3:1). I didn't do it, though, as I was more interested in what the kids could do.

Notes from Oregon written ex post facto

I'm still at the Hilton Garden Inn lobby the morning of 7/31 writing this while my family sleeps.

Oregon was such a great time. We had many "mini vacations" in one - actually a little of everything. Here were the highlights:



Day 1 - Woodburn

The drive to Woodburn was relatively uneventful. We had a lot of traffic in Renton and in Tacoma, and it was pretty clear. I was advised by the reservations agent at the Salishan to bypass Portland by taking I-205 around Portland. While it didn't necessarily look like a shortcut on the map, we blazed right through. My wife and I took the mental note that we had to remember to come back up I-205 when we return!

By the time we got to Woodburn, the kids were hungry. After doing a bit of surveying, we decided to let the kids eat at McDonald's. I tried the new Fiesta salad - it was good (not low carb, but tasty). The kids had Big Kids meals with some really cool little Beanie Baby toys. We thought we might collect these toys up and down the coast! The McDonald's in Woodburn had a play are that our kids wanted to play on. However, the rules required that kids wear socks, and our kids were wearing their slip-on sandals with no socks. We promised them instead that we'd play at the hotel swimming pool after we went shopping.

The Woodburn Company stores were very good, but other than some underwear I bought at Jockey, we didn't take advantage of having no sales tax in Oregon. There were some good stores - Polo, Tommy Hilfiger, Cole Haan, Banana Republic, et al. The issue was that they were still clearing summer fashions, and we have actually been doing a bit of shopping this summer while I've been unemployed. My wife got tired of being an "out" mom, so she's been updating her wardrobe as of late...

Because we were headed out to the Coast, we chose to stay in Salem, OR, where highway 22 takes you West. We stayed at the Holiday Inn Express there, which was right behind a Costco. The swimming pool was on the first floor, and seemed a bit claustrophobic. That said, the kids didn't care, and they had a fun time in the pool. We were there with a family (Mormon?) that had six kids - five of which were girls!

The hotel had a 10% off deal with the Applebee's at the Lancaster Mall. They'd made special room keys. I decided I like Applebee's. The kids loved the pasta with marinara sauce, my wife enjoyed the veggie patch pizza, and my barbeque chicken salad wasn't bad either. The meal was also very reasonably priced.

On the way to Applebee's, we noticed that there was a Residence Inn in Salem. It looks like a better hotel than the Holiday Inn Express. I'll keep this as a mental note in case we ever return to Salem.


Day 2 - Enchanted Forest and the Beach

On Day 2, we got up, ate a breakfast at Denny's, and head over to Enchanted Forest. It was a storybook land with kiddie rides. The place was very well done with not only displays but also many little buildings and caverns for the kids to explore. My younger daughter started getting a bit scared by some of the dark places, but I also suspected she was getting a bit tired. My older daughter loved the slides they constructed and took multiple trips down the slides.

In addition to the general admission fee, we also had to pay 75 cents per ticket, and we burned through 36 tickets for kid rides. The favorites:

  • Kid bumper boats - we hadn't seen these before. The kids for the most part did donuts and didn't figure out how to really get them to go where they wanted to, but I think they enjoyed floating on the water
  • Kid ferris wheel - this is like the ride at Remlinger Farms near home
  • Frog Hopper - this is the favorite ride of my younger daughter, and she's done this at Wild Waves near home. My older daughter won't ride this...
  • Bumper cars. Unfortunately, my younger daughter wasn't tall enough to do the bumper cars, so I did this with my older daughter twice. I probably had even more fun than she did. The cars were circular, and they were controlled by two levers. To turn left, you pull the left lever backward and push the right lever forward. To turn right, you pull the right lever backward and push the left lever forward. To move forward, you push both forward, and to reverse, you pull both backward. The backward motion is much faster than the forward motion, so the best bumper action is to reverse into your prey!
All fun times!

From Enchanted Forest, we decided to return to Applebee's for lunch. My wife wanted the Veggie Patch pizza again, my kids wanted the pasta marinara again, and I decided to try the Bourbon Street steak (which was too salty for me...)

The kids also suggested the strong move of going to Cold Stone Creamery nearby where I probably had the best dish of ice cream I've ever had in the United States. I had a peanut butter ice cream with crushed almonds. Cold Stone's peanut butter ice cream rocks!

Our server at Cold Stone Creamery was a super nice guy, too. He was very friendly, and we found out that he's going to go to Cornish next year in Seattle.

The drive to the Coast from Salem isn't bad at all. Our hotel room at the Salishan lodge wasn't ready when we arrived. (Check in time is 3pm, and we arrived by around 2:40pm). We decided to down to the beach access, which is a short walk along a "nature trail." Prior to taking the walk, I had to use the bathroom, so my wife and kids perused a toy store where we purchased a kite for the beach and some souveneirs (key chains that they can put on their school backpacks).

A note on the kite. There were two kites that were affordable - a 6 foot "shark" kite that I thought was really cool, and a lower priced stunt kite. My wife thought the shark kite was cool, but too big, so I bought the cheaper stunt kite. Unfortunately, I haven't watched the DVD that came with the kite yet, and I still can't really figure out how to fly it...

The beach was great. It was empty with the exception of one other family as far as we can see. That section of beach is private to a residential area with access to the resort. It's a good thing that there weren't other people around. I couldn't ever get the stunt kite to stay in the air, but I did get it to almost spear my younger daughter. The thing dives really fast!

The food at the Salishan is great! They do a great job deep-frying - the kid's chicken strips and fries were awesome. My wife and I ended up sharing a couple of appetizers - an order of spicy chicken wings and seared ahi. I had a salad, too, which wasn't that great. For breakfast the next morning, I had steak and eggs. Also solid...

The Internet access at the Salishan is a bit weak. There are public terminals that you can use for free, but the access is slow. There is also in-room service for $5.95 (which I used), and it was weak as well...

The pool at the Salishan is great. It's a large pool with an area for kids; it also has an adjoining weight room that is very well equipped.


Continuing the night of 7/31 while my wife is shopping and my kids are asleep...

Day 3 - Marine Life and Arrival at Seven Feathers

We started Day 3 with our first session at the Salishan pool and ate breakfast there. We finally checked out of the hotel around 11:30am.

That morning, I asked around about whether Sea Lion Caves was worth a visit, and to my surprise, none of the hotel staff we'd spoken to had been to the caves. All reported that they heard the trip was good, but none had been there personally. Also, all of them thought that Florence was at least 2.5 to 3 hours away. (We got there in probably less than 1.5 hours...) While I was surprised at first, I also must admit that I haven't been to any of the places highlighted in the AAA book for my own suburban home town...

We purchased the Oregon Coast Aquarium tickets in advance at our hotel. The place is very well done. In addition to the animals themselves, there were also a number of educational exhibits. The seasonal exhibit was about bats, and while they didn't have many bats, there was a lot of information there about bats in the displays which we didn't get to enjoy because our kids moved us right through the aquarium. The same is true of the more permanent exhibits there. I'd like to return when the kids are older. The one thing I did note also is that the aquarium is really set up as an outdoor venue. The place would be a bit miserable during inclement weather.

Sea Lion Caves was quite a spectacle, but we didn't spend long there. For $19.50 admission for the four of us, we went down an elevator where we could see a cave through a relatively small portal that was home to about 75 sea lions. The cavern we were in had the stench of ocean life. There was also an outdoor sea lion lookout where we could see about a dozen sea lions. It was very windy there. After spending the admission fee, my wife was determined to buy something at the gift shop to prove we were really there but didn't even find anything that could inspire her.

On the way back to I-5 we stopped at BJ's ice cream in Florence, OR. The place was recommended to me both by someone I spoke with at the Salishan and a worker at Sea Lion Caves. The ice cream there was very very good (I liked the Peanut Butter & Chocolate), and we purchased some salt water taffy that was also quite impressive.

The drive to Seven Feathers was pretty straightforward from there. My older daughter picked Seven Feathers because of the picture of the swimming pool in the AAA guidebook. We were not disappointed by the pool.

We arrived on a Monday night, which was karaoke night. There was a young girl who sang from outside the bar, and she was very good - she had a beautiful voice (but at times slightly off key). The first two contestants for the $50 pot that night were also excellent. We didn't hear anymore because we had to eat dinner, but on the way back from dinner we heard someone that wasn't so great as we were passing by the bar. The winner of the night was to be invited back to compete for the $500 cash prize in the finals.

The food at Seven Feathers for dinner wasn't great. Not terrible, but not great either.

My older daughter was very disappointed that kids don't get to play video poker because she knows how to play 5-card draw...

Continuing on the theme of the locals not visiting tourist attractions, it turns out the concierge and a couple of people at the front desk had not been to Crater Lake. Wild!



Day 4 - Crater Lake

Day 4 started with a session at the pool and breakfast at Seven Feathers. Again, the food wasn't great, but I did "cheat" and sample both the girl's butterhorn and cinammon roll. Yum.

We got off to a late start, and drove to Crater Lake through Roseburg and across 138. We returned via 62 into Medford. We did about 1/3 of Rim Drive (from the North Entrance up by Diamond Lake exiting around Mazuma Village).

Crater Lake is BEAUTIFUL!

The other observation that I made is that on the way to Crater Lake I was a passenger. My wife offered to drive that morning, and I took her up on it given how much driving we were to do later in the day. On the way up to Crater Lake, I felt a bit of a sensation above my ears (the site of psychic hearing) as well as later on the top of my head (the site of psychic intuition). I would be very eager to return to Crater Lake and run psi experiments. I am wondering whether being in the presence of unadulterated nature may enhance levels of consciousness.

My younger daughter that day was a bit defiant. She had expressed at the beginning of the day that she didn't want to go to Crater Lake, and when we got there, she refused to take pictures with the family - even running away when we had a fellow tourist take a picture of our whole family. She refused to visit the gift shop at first as well. I offered to stay in the van with her while big sister and mom went ahead. I first shared a piece of her saltwater taffy with her and then later explained how this situation was similar to the story of Pig Will and Pig Won't (see Richard Scarry's Please and Thank You Book). Just as Pig Won't missed out on the all the fun at the boatyard, she might miss out on the fun at the Crater Lake gift shop. She then agreed to go join her big sister at the gift shop and she made a nice recovery!

The roads on Rim Drive are kind of scary. You could drive right off the cliffs with no guard rails or anything! I can see why Rim Drive is closed in the winter months.

Unfortunately, all the backroads driving from Crater Lake got me in the speeding mode. I accidentally kept the speed up through Shady Cove, OR, and I was pulled over by a police officer for speeding. He was actually very nice though and let me off with a warning. I think he might have appreciated my situation with my van full of people and stuff.

After the police stop, I proceeded cautiously down to Medford, ate at McDonald's, and took a slight backtrack up I-5 to hit 199 (The Redwood Highway). From there, we skipped over The Oregon Caves (too late and my younger daughter is too small for the tour anyway), and we gunned it through the Redwoods past all the parks and even past the Paul Bunyan / Blue Ox statue in Klamath, CA. Our destination was McKinleyville, CA, where there was a three-diamond rated Holiday Inn Express. There isn't really much between the Redwoods and McKinleyville.

Anyway, that was Oregon!

Notes on leaving written ex post facto

Wow! It's been go-go-go. We're on our driving vacation now! I'm catching up here during a brief break in the action. The rest of the family is still asleep, and I'm typing this using the Wi-Fi connection from the Hilton Garden Inn in San Mateo.

Finalizing the date

Getting going on this trip was a slight challenge. We had some balls in the air with respect to the lot on The Street, but that wasn't really keeping us back. The biggest issue, I think, was getting my wife to get her arms around going now. The issue with a driving vacation and an open ended time schedule is that unlike with airplane reservations, you haven't committed. Interestingly, to get herself to commit, she told one of the moms at the bus stop when she was leaving on Saturday (the 24th), and that's what did it for her.

From my perspective, there were two parties to attend that we had given tentative RSVP's to on Saturday the 24th that we had to finalize - a birthday party of a former coworker's husband and an engagement party of a former coworker! I also felt that Saturday would be a good day because we'd get a weekend rate at the first hotel we wanted to stay at (which was a business hotel) and a weekday rate at the second place we wanted to stay (which was a resort!)

The scramble preparing to leave

There was a bit of a scramble getting everything ready to go, and we even had a punch list that included a trip to Costco, some house cleaning, laundry, retrieving items we were storing at my brother-in-law's place, submitting a predevelopment services form from the City of Bellevue about our lot on the street, returning a preliminary geotechnical study to the seller's real estate agent for the lot we were looking at, etc.

The day before we left, I finalized hotel reservations, with a lot of help from my older daughter. I had both my daughters pick their stuffed animals (my younger one picked "Lemon" - an orange and yellow teddy bear and my older one picked "Honu" - a stuffed Hawaiian turtle), their favorite game ("Junior Monopoly"), their favorite DVD's, and their favorite books. I filled two bins of stuff so we could just "chill" in the hotel rooms.

The night before leaving I was remarkably defocused. I spent a couple hours at a friend's house that I hadn't seen in a couple weeks. I had to return a key that he'd given me to watch his cats, and we ended up just chatting. Then, my wife and I chatted until late at night.

The "highlight" of the night though was that I somehow backed the van into the edge of our garage door opening and got it "stuck." I'm still not sure exactly how I got it wedged in so deeply. I ended up pushing on the side of the van to unwedge it while my wife pulled the van forward. I took so much paint off our house which ended up on the van. While I was able to just wash off most of the paint, there's still some traces of white "streaks" showing on the van.

Leaving

The next morning was yet another a mad dash scramble to get final packing done, the van loaded, the kids fed, and the house cleaned and ready to show while we're on vacation. We were targeting to leave the house around 10am and to drop off our mail key and my brother-in-law's house key with my mother-in-law. She had a "gambling date" with friends to go to Tulalip that day.

Our schedule got thrown off by a return call from a semi-retired builder/architect recommended by our real estate agent, and he was on the phone with my wife for a long time while I worked on remaining housecleaning tasks independently. What's funny is that he told her how he got out of building because he couldn't make any money doing it. He built on a lot of challenging lots, and he told her that we're better off buying a Chaffey home that's close to what we want than building custom. (Concern?)

Our first attempt at leaving was a false-start. While my wife had packed a fleece jacket, she had forgotten to pack a more lightweight jacket. At first, when she realized what she'd forgotten, she wanted to just keep going, but we ultimately decided to turn around.

We didn't end up getting to my mother-in-law's until perhaps 11:00am. My mother-in-law was actually quite sad to see us go. My wife thinks she was even a bit choked up. I wasn't sure - I thought she might have just been concerned for our safety. That said, my wife knows better.

We took a picture of the kids from my mother-in-law's house, and we were off!

Thursday, July 22, 2004

Dream that I woke up to this morning

The dream is set in the home I grew up in from ages 7-18.  It's also a workplace.  I am working out of the dining room, and a couple of colleagues (from two different jobs but who supported Chicago) are working in the small bedroom that was my sister's old bedroom.  My parents are sleeping in the upstairs master bedroom.

I'm speaking at first with one of the guys about their desire to go to a tradeshow.  During the dream, I'm questioning whether the time is really right.  I also remember seeing an ad by Circuit City pitching home phone booth additions (like another room added to the house...) costing $1 million - complete with mortgage and financing options.  I keep thinking this is a stupid idea.

I remember having to go to the bathroom then, and I pass through my parent's bedroom where they are sleeping to the master bathroom.  (When we first moved to that house, my mom didn't let anyone use the hall bathroom because she wanted to make sure it was kept clean for guests.  As such, we used to have to traverse through their bedroom to use their bathroom.  This didn't last too long, and ultimately my parents moved to the downstairs master bedroom, my sister moved to the upstairs master bedroom, and I had to go through my sister's bedroom to go to the bathroom!)

When I approach the toilet to go to the bathroom, I realize that the toilet is flooding, and the valve is also flooding.  I remember thinking that this is some kind of remote plumbing signal gone awry - kind of like a "spam" e-mail - from Circuit City trying to promote the home phone booth.  Quickly, I grab one of my mom's super nice plush pink towels to stop the flooding from reaching the carpet of the master bedroom.   Then, I wake up.

I'm not really sure what this means yet.  This is the second bathroom / flooding dream that I've had, but the context seems very different.  I'll think about this a bit.

Wednesday, July 21, 2004

Update of lot on "The Street"

Concerns with the lot:

  • Very sloped lot.  Some slopes are greater than 40% and may be very expensive to build on.
  • Wetlands?  There's some ambiguity on a map we've seen showing that significant portions of the property are designated wetlands.  That said, it may be a function of seeing a black-and-white version of the map.  My wife's visit to the City of Bellevue revealed no wetlands issues.
  • Regulatory issues.  With the slopes, the City may restrict what we can build on.  Even if we're not restricted, we may have many approvals to go through.
  • Expense in getting utilities (e.g., water) stubbed at street.  $7K here, $2K there, etc.  And these don't even include getting all that from the street into the lot.

My wife's preliminary visit revealed though that in general this should be doable, but expensive.  The person at the city office felt that the property should handle perhaps a 3,500 square foot print.  The issue will be that because of the slopes, the home may need to be terraced.

Tomorrow, we will be discussing this with the real estate agent selling our home.  We also need to work a strategy for how we will be working with the seller to get a price we want.

Mariners showing power

Continuing on an earlier observation I made about how the youth of the Seattle Mariners this summer may return the team to power over force.

Bucky Jacobsen hit a walk-off home run - already his third in the big leagues.

The final out was made by Justin Leone, another rookie, at third base.

With some key changes, the Mariners again are showing "power," and things are going their way.  The young guys are making even the older guys do well - example being Bret Boone's home run earlier in the game.

Perhaps the Mariner's turnaround at the second half is similar to the turnaround I need to make in diabetes and life management.  Many of the pieces that I've been using in my diabetes and life management may come together with some strong sources of power.  Just as Justin Leone or Bucky Jacobsen can make Raul Ibanez and Bret Boone step up, perhaps a few key new elements like chiropractic and supplemets can make my dietary and lifestyle changes stronger, too!

Tried a yoga tape today...

So, one of the goals I had was to try a yoga tape.  With the house being staged, there isn't really a great place for me to do the yoga, but I made do in the family room.  Following the tape kicked my butt in like 40 minutes.  The exhaustion isn't like a weight lifting or a running type of tired; perhaps part was mental, but there is definitely a huge physical component to it.

At first I felt a bit lame, but I need to recognize that I should celebrate where I'm at, not where I want to be.  The VHS cassette cover also warned that this is an advanced tape and that beginners should not attempt all of the exercises.  That said, perhaps they had more in mind than 40 minutes of a 2 hour tape!  I'll work some more on it.

Purchased supplement program today...

Today, I was measured by a biophotonic scanner intended to detect the presence and detection of cartenoids (antioxidant nutrients).  The scale used by the manufacturer (Pharmanex) is called the "Body Defense Index."  The range is from 1,500 to 73,000 with the average being at 19,000 and those reporting healthy diets of at six or more fruits or vegetables per day scoring 25,000 or higher.

I scored 26,000, which the rep said was very good for a diabetic.  That said, the ideal scores should be 40,000 or higher.  If my scores don't improve after two months on the supplements, I get my money back.  I thought this was a very clever way to market vitamins.

So, I signed up.  Let's see how this works. 

Chiropractic appointment today...

Today, I decided to visit a chiropractor down at the bottom of our hill.  It turns out that there is a problem with my 6th, 7th, and 8th dorsals, as indicated  on the Edgar Cayce Web site.


In the causation of diabetes is a disturbance of certain cerebrospinal centers which are associated with the sixth, seventh, eighth, and ninth dorsal sympathetic ganglia.  These "pressures in specific centers" of the nervous system give an impulse to the liver and pancreas primarily and apparently also to the spleen.

I have a mild case of scoliosis.  I took a bunch of X-Rays, and I go back tomorrow with my wife to discuss my treatment options.

The chiropractor did tell me that she had an experience with a patient whose blood pressure and cholesterol returned to normal ranges after chiropractic treatment in conjunction with dietary and lifestyle changes.


Monday and Tuesday afternoon with the kids...

On Monday, my wife had to take her mom to the hardware superstore to buy some insect spray so that my brother-in-law could get rid of a wasp nest on their house.  I had Monday afternoon with the kids, and we had a good time playing indoors.  Both the kids are very interested in playing poker and after playing some "real" poker (without chips, as the betting is still too challenging for my four year old), I introduced them to "video poker" on our Sony Playstation.  After that, we had a fun-filled game of Junior Monopoly.  Kind of an "inside play" day.

On Tuesday, my wife had to go to the City of Bellevue to gather more information from the City about our potential lot on "The Street" (more on this later...)  Tuesday afternoon with the kids was also a good time, and we spent it outside.  I took them to the track at the high school where I could run while they played in the long jump pit.  They also ran around the track a few times, too.  My older daughter did 4 laps, and my younger daughter did 3.  The little one is actually fast.  Trying desparately to keep up with her big sister, she ran a 3 minute lap - not bad for a four year old!  We then went a park in a local neighborhood where my older daughter actually recognized a little girl from the last time she played there.

My older daughter told me last night that she really likes that I'm not working for the summer.  I was happy to hear that.


Filed my certificate of formation for Hillwork Group, LLC

By now the Washington State Secretary of State should have my Certificate of Formation for Hillwork Group, LLC.  I completed the package on Monday, and it went in Tuesday's mail.

A lawyer friend helped created the Certificate of Formation as well as a single member LLC agreement that sets the rules for the company and ensures that I have clear established process for not comingling company and personal assets.

The cost for filing was $175, plus a $20 fee to expedite the process.  I'm now on pins and needles waiting to hear back.

What was interesting was that I had to decide what address to put as the registered agent that would receive mailings from the state.  Our house is on the market, so at first I was reluctant to use my home address.  At the same time though, I'm not ready to invest in a "virtual office" solution, and I'm also not prepared to visit a post office box regularly to pick up mail.

We'll see how this goes!

Returning a favor... And a lesson?

Am I chilling out in general, or am I just better solving other people's problems?

My wife's cousin is one of the people who is helping us to evaluate the property on "The Street."   In return for the favor, I offered to help his wife with their home computer.  While I was originally going to help with one (a Windows 95-based Sony VAIO), I ended up also offering to help with another, an HP Pavillion 7935 that went bad.

After taking a closer look (or should I say "listen"), I concluded after a misdiagnosis of a software problem, that the problem was really with a defective hard drive.  A little bit of research on the drive itself showed that there was a class action lawsuit filed against Fujitsu, the manufacturer of the hard drive.

The details are actually in http://hddclassactionsettlement.com/.  Here's the quotation:

The Settlement resolves claims made on behalf of certain individuals and entities residing, domiciled or located in the United States, who acquired or purchased in the United States for their own use and not for resale, any Fujitsu brand PB-15H hard disk drives (also referred to as the MPF3xxx-AH series of hard disk drives) and PB-16 hard disk drives (also referred to as the MPG3xxx series of hard disk drives), including all Fujitsu brand hard disk drive models bearing a model number composed of or starting with the sequence of MPF3102AH, MPF3153AH, MPF3204AH, MPG3102, MPG3153, MPT3204, MPG3307, or MPG3409, which may be followed by alphabetical character(s).
The hard drive is a Fujitsu MPG3409-AT.

I called Hewlett Packard about this.  It turns out that up until December 2003, HP was replacing Fujitsu drives named in the lawsuit for free.  Of course, the PC is now out of warranty, and the program has expired.  (Details at http://www.hp.com/support/hdreplacement.)  HP has advised me that it is now up to the consumers to purchase their own hard drive replacements.

In addition, because my wife's cousin lost the recovery disks containing both the operating system and applications that came with your computer, I had to order replacements from HP.  The cost was $13.

The lawsuit claims to reimburse the consumers for replacing a hard drive and for data recovery services.  Here are the details from http://www.hddclassactionsettlement.com/faq.php3:

For most claims, you will receive up to a maximum of $45 per hard disk drive or the actual expense incurred for replacing the hard disk drive, whichever is less. For claims relating to data recovery services, you will receive up to a maximum of $1,200 per hard disk drive or the actual expense incurred, whichever is less.

Just a bit of learning for the day.  What's interesting here is that when it's not my own PC, I don't mind doing this kind of troubleshooting.  I have just been rolling with the punches calling HP support, buying a new hard drive, installing the operating system, applying fixes, etc.  For some reason, when it's my own PC, I get very frustrated and uptight.  Interesting...

Perhaps this is a clue that consulting might be better for my temperament than growing a company myself...  Or, it could just mean that after six weeks of unemployment, I am just more relaxed in general.



Sunday, July 18, 2004

Continuing to need to focus on the bliss of the present...

I'm still having a hard time personally living "day by day."
 
I just was raising my voice at my wife just now for no apparent reason.  The issue was regarding when we were leaving on our vacation and when we were going to hear back from our friends that are helping us evaluate the property on "The Street."
 
I wasn't questioning any of the decisions being made, but somehow my frustration with not knowing when we're going to move on with "plans" was starting to get to me.
 
The reality is that I know that I shouldn't worry about the future or "plans."  It just remains hard to apply these teachings sometimes because the ego gets in the way.  Now I understand the statement that one of my former coworkers had about "separating my consciousness from my egoistic mind."  This is the battle that I am still fighting.

My attempt at a recap of the last 6 weeks...

OK, here's where I'm at after 6 weeks.  While to the reader this may not seem like a lot, I certainly think that what I'm about to summarize below was worth 6 weeks in "lost wages."
 
Career:

  • Working for "The Man" is not what I want to do.
  • Working independently definitely has some appeal to me.
  • My wife and I are looking at three different things on the "logistics of life" in the short term
    • a photo kiosk business (PhotoMaestro).  I have already bought the first kiosk and am looking to place it.
    • a consulting practice (Hillwork).  I haven't done much to actually sign any real clients yet, but I'm in no hurry to do so.  I want to hang out for the rest of the summer.
    • an arts & crafts business for my wife.   She sort of initiated this on her own.
  • Longer term, it's foggier to me, but I'm less concerned.  I am learning not to worry about the past or future and to better enjoy the bliss of the present.

Home:

  • Our home is still on the market, but I am less stressed about this now.  While I definitely don't prefer living life knowing that someone could make an appointment to see our house at any time, I also now am comfortable that the right things in our control are happening and that the outcome will be determined more by the energy forces in the Universe rather than any apparent lack of marketing or competence by our real estate agent.
  • We are looking at potentially building a home on "The Street."  I have written before about how I got such a good feeling about this, and that feeling persists despite some otherwise poor early returns on potential construction challenges.  If it's economically feasible, I think we could be happy there.
  • We are also comfortable with the idea of living in a rental property short term.  Candidly, this remains something that I'm actually looking forward to.

Personal growth:

  • I have been reading books and doing a lot of introspection.  While I haven't completely eliminated the concept of doing further academic study in psychology, this idea has lost momentum with me.  It's almost as if I have less desire to "know about" than just to "know."  I think my own development might actually be constrained by "thinking too much."  I think my diabetes management is also suffering from the same problem.
  • I'd give myself a C+ on the regularity and intensity of my meditation program. 
  • My psychic development piece probably gets a C-.  I want to spend more energy here, as I have definitely been getting signals that I'd like to be able to "listen" to more accurately.  One of these is about the feeling I have about "The Street."
  • I have a new respect for history and the "collective unconscious."  I think that deep within us all, we know what we're supposed to be doing.  I am glad to be in the process of "awakening."
  • I'm definitely feeling better about life in general.  My daughters have been very affectionate as of late, too.  I think they like having dad at home.

Diabetes management:

  • I have certainly experimented with techniques that seem to help in the short-term.  That said, this morning, my waking blood sugar was 161.  I think there are enough secondary phenomena that are forcing a return to a "set point."  Admittedly, I haven't been living with as much discipline as I have been in the past, so I'm probably "getting away" with more.  Still, the results are nothing to jump up and down about.
  • What the spiritual teachings are perhaps telling me now more than anything is that I need to stop thinking so logically about what's going to get the blood sugar down.  This is the same kind of thought process that the medical community has struggled with, and it's a different kind of "force."  Where consciousness gets constrained is based on the limitations of human logic and science.  For example, it can't be easily explained how monks can control otherwise "autonomic functions" (such as their skin temperature) by will.  Similarly, as I seek to control my blood sugar, I believe I need to stop "knowing about" all the different foods, supplements, techniques, etc., and I need to "know" my body.

Summary of unemployment, week 6

It's been 6 weeks already...  Amazing.
 
Main accomplishments:

I started working on the itinerary for our trip down the coast, but we have decided to postpone it.  I have already cancelled the reservations that I'd made before.

The Debut...

I rented a DVD called The Debut.  I really enjoyed it.  It's a film that spawned from the thesis project of a Filipino-American film student about the Filipino-American experience.  It took him something like 8 years to get this film out.
 
One interesting "marker" indicating how long this film really took was that there was a scene where teenagers were checking their pagers.  No one would have a numeric pager today!
 
While the specifics of the story didn't quite hit home (I wasn't raised in a blue collar family of a postal worker; I was in a suburb far away from the whole modified car and Asian-American gang scene; etc.), I did enjoy the human elements that I think apply across the Asian-American experience.
 
I also enjoyed the DVD features highlighting the struggles to write, produce, and release the film.  The movie ultimately received critical acclaim, and I appreciate the efforts that these people took to be heard.  I'm making a mental note of these struggles as a motivator if things start looking bleak for me personally when trying to be heard.

Fragments of dreams that I can remember...

Unfortunately, I can't remember everything from last night's dreams.  Here are some key elements:

  • A Latin friend of mine (from Puerto Rico/Florida) from college is upset with me, and I am somewhat puzzled.  I sincerely am supportive of his desires to lead, but I am frustrated with the direction he is taking.  Several people he is leading have tried to confide in me and seek advice about what to do with him, but I'm in a difficult situation.  I have been communicating my concerns to my friend via e-mail, but he seems to be receiving the e-mails a day late.  He is upset about an e-mail I sent because he thought it was contradictory to the encouragement that I'd been sending him to go move forward aggressively.  I am frustrated because he has been too aggressive without at all counseling with me and then claiming that I have been encouraging of him.

    I am not fully sure of what this is supposed to be telling me, but I am wondering if there is a warning here about the friend (whom I haven't thought about) and his ties to Florida where I just visited.  I am also wondering about a warning about using e-mail instead of direct communication.
  • The academic founder of a company two jobs ago was in a dream seeking my advice.  We never had a great relationship because to some degree I was the guy hired in who was calling his baby ugly.  That said, in this dream, he seemed to be much more dependent on me than he ever was in real life.  (In real life, the four academic founders never really left their academic posts and thus always had a life to return to even if the company failed...)
  • I spoke with several injured people in wheelchairs, some of whom were temporarily injured, and some of whom were permanently injured.  One of the people who was permanently injured was a technical founder of a company three jobs ago who is currently residing on the East Coast.  I'm not sure what the significance was here.   I did have a good relationship with this person, and what is significant about him is that he had chosen to "retire" back East and build a house on land inherited from his parents.  In addition, this particular person was an intellectual whom I had a good relationship with.

I don't remember these dreams well, but I think there is significance here.  I'll need to chew on this more.

Power vs. Force - Mariners turning it around?

I did a post after the Mariners vs. Astros game, where I described the Mariners as all force, no power.  Now that the young guys are getting an opportunity to play and there's a renewed excitement in the fan base, I think this is turning around.  We're only one four game series into the second half of the season, but I think the power is becoming evident.
 
I saw a 9th inning catch by center fielder Hiram Bocachica, literally stealing a home run from the Indians.  This is an example of making things happen when they're going your way.
 
Rookie Justin Leone had two home runs in this series.  Rookie Bucky Jacobsen could do no wrong today.  Also, Raul Ibanez, now back from his injury is definitely contributing.  The Mariners after the all-star break are looking like a different team.
 
While it's sad to lose John Olerud (the paragon of class in the game), I think releasing Rich Aurilia and benching Edgar Martinez are allowing the team to return to "power."  I think here's an example of how focusing on growth and not necessarily the outcome can produce results.
 

Saturday, July 17, 2004

Today is my birthday...

I'm 37 today.  From one perspective, today is just another day.  On the other hand, today is a reminder that I am in a period that Jung wrote about.  He wrote that dreams get more significant at the onset of middle age (age 36 to 40)...

Thus we speak on the one hand of a personal and on the other of a collective unconscious, which lies at a deeper level and is further removed from consciousness than the personal unconscious. The "big" or "meaningful" dreams come from this deeper level. They revel their significance–quite apart from the subjective impression they make–by their plastic form, which often has a poetic force and beauty. Such dreams occur mostly during the critical phases of life, in early youth, puberty, at the onset of middle age (thirty-six to forty), and within sight of death. (On the Nature of Dreams, p. 77)

History always repeats itself.

Yoga tapes

Somehow, I think that yoga is part of the picture.  I also think back to why I decided to take a Tai Chi course in college.  Maybe there is some tie back to Eastern mind-body techniques that I need to be paying attention to.  Those yoga tapes have been sitting in my shelf, and perhaps this extra week should be spent viewing them.

Another thought... Chiropractic

See <http://www.chirolob.com/diabetes.htm>
 
This concept was first introduced through the works of Edgar Cayce, and now there is other material that is suggestive of a theory behind this.
 
Perhaps this is a leson for me that I need to transcend what logic can explain for now and to have faith in that which we cannot understand.  Hawkins writes that Freud, like most scientific minds, calibrated at 499, because he could not intuit what could not be explained rationally.  Jung, on the other hand, calibrated at 540 because he could transcend that rational thinking.
 
Perhaps I need to use the extra week to seek out chiropractic therapy.

Postponing our vacation...

My wife and I have decided to postpone our July 19th departure date for our vacation pending our investigation of the lot.
 
I am also thinking about how to take advantage of this time because I have a feeling that there was probably another reason to delay it in the energy field of the universe.  (I'm not sure why but I just had the feeling that this was going to happen...)
 
Thoughts in my mind:
 

  • Perhaps our house will sell this weekend, and we needed to be here anyway to start move planning.
  • Perhaps a site will be so interested in the photo kiosk concept that I need to be here to close the transaction.
  • Perhaps I really need to have my LLC and accounting all set up before I head down to California.

I'm not sure.

Investigating lot on "The Street"

Recall the entry on The Street.
 
My wife and I decided that we'd start looking at this more seriously, so she called the selling agent for a lot we're interested in building on.  The lot has been on the market for 3-4 months, and the listing indicated that a study was happening in May.  It turns out the study was completed July 12th, and my wife happened to call for a copy of the study the very day that he received it.
 
We have decided to postpone our family vacation to do the necessary due diligence as we may have the opportunity to evaluate this lot and get a leg up on other interested parties.
 
Unfortunately, the early returns are that it will be very expensive to build on this lot because of the slopes.  We're going to have to get the buyer to come down in price, and she might not be willing to do this unless the property goes unsold for a very long time.  What we do believe is that a professional builder will probably stay away from this lot as a spec home because of the risk.
 
That said, as of now, I do feel like this is part of the path...   While I still have many questions on the details (how much it will cost, how we're going to finance it, how this interacts with my business ideas, etc.), I somehow visualize this more as a place to live than just a real estate investment...  I'm not sure if that's good or bad right now.  It just is.

Insights from gift shop

My first detailed meeting on pitching the photo kiosk concept went well yesterday.
 
Here's why the gift shop is "more interested than when you would think" in getting a photo kiosk.

  • Generates foot traffic to the store.  He had a photo copier at one point in the store that generated 6000-8000 copies per month.  It wasn't a great money maker at 10% of 5 cents per copy.  However, it generated foot traffic.
  • Cross-sell of more expensive items.  The average greeting card sale is 99 cents.  A photo album or frame might be $10.  Not only are these more expensive items higher margin, they are more revenue altogether.
  • Recognizes that things change.  This has been true in this business now that mass merchandisers are selling the same products.

Potential barriers:

  • The mall has an "exclusive" on vending machine contracts.  We need to ensure that this doesn't classify as a vending machine.
  • Concern over offending people if passersby watch someone printing lewd or distasteful photos.  (Not a concern over legal liability).
  • Lease terms.  The issue is that the gift shop's lease is in part determined by the total revenues from the location, and the amount levied would be based on the gross revenues from the kiosk, not the net revenues to the location.
Another interesting note is that the gift shop probably prefers that the machine itself is the point of sale.  They had "shrinkage" from the photocopier experience because the people working the cash register were often forced to not charge people for bad copies, but they were still invoiced on the counts by the copy machine operator.  Getting the store out of the loop is key.
 
Floor space is also a key requirement.  The 2 foot shelves are defined spaces.
 

Using friends versus paying for professional work...

We are learning to take advantage of our friends more, and I hope over time that they do the same of me.  I hope this is how the world can continue to work...
 
Examples:

  • A lawyer friend has offered to help us set up our LLC
  • An architect friend has offered to help us evaluate a property
  • My wife's cousin has also offered to help us evaluate the same property
  • A former employee has offered to help me debug a problem I'm having with backups on my Windows Small Business Server

Here are some examples of my hoping to help others:

  • Making introductions to potential angel investors for a friend's company
  • Helping Marsha's cousin set up a computer

While I know the world doesn't look like a "score card," I am realizing that perhaps others are helping me more than I am helping them right now.

That said, we also know the downside of using friends.  Our former real estate while good intentioned didn't produce the results we wanted - at least at first.

In addition, a small business accountant that my wife and I met with this week recommended that we should always pay for professional work so that we have an opportunity to complain when things go wrong.

Of course, our former real estate agent also allowed us to complain; she was great about it.  Also, she still has one exemption...  Perhaps the greatest lesson of all might come if after all this time, my daughter's prediction ultimately comes true - that the people who viewed our house last month actually come back and buy it now.  These people should have had an opportunity by now to see everything they were going to see; if they really love this house, they'd come back.

Why PV project is now NID-based

Now that I've bought an NID machine, the cat's out of the bag.  The PV project for history was "Photo Virtuoso" which I have now replaced with the name "Photo Maestro."  One of things I was considering doing was to actually purchase my own photo kiosks directly from a manufacturer (KIS) and brand them myself.
 
The issue with that strategy is that after visiting NID, I realized that the software platform offered by Touchpoint remains immature.  Examples:

  • Confusing user interface.  There aren't simple ways to do simple things - for example, other machines have a "print one of everything" option.  Editing photos doesn't have clear buttons that walk you through the process - for example, when you're done editing, you have to hit "View Photos" instead of something called "Done."  It's tough to crop images (there's no autocrop feature either...).
  • Suboptimal color correction.  I'm wondering if the software isn't using the EXIF settings in the JPEG or something.  The Sony Picturestation seemed to have the best color settings.
  • Poor scan quality.   The colors are off.  I'm not sure if this is a hardware or a software issue to be fair.
  • Image quality of predefined borders.   While these looked good for 4x6, they didn't look good at 8x10.  It's possible that TouchPoint just needs to load two different versions of the borders.

After my visit to NID, it became apparent to me that someone would need to lean on the software vendors, and there'd be a lot more leverage coming from an organization that's already sold 300 of these units rather than a guy operating locally here out of Seattle.  The other thing I grew to remember here is that trying to work with an organization like Sony to deal with independent operators was always going to be tough when the number one customer is still Kinko's which has a different set of requirements.

Hence, I'm moving forward with NID.  Let's see how this goes!


Missed Hawkins' lecture

I missed the David Hawkins (the author of Power vs. Force) lecture while he was in town.  I found out that he was going to be lecturing here in Seattle on July 10th from 10am to 4pm.  The problem was that my younger daughter's birthday party was scheduled for July 10th at 1:30pm.  There was no way I was going to miss her birthday, and I decided that paying over $55 to see only a part of the lecture wasn't worth it.
 
The topic was interesting - it was about new research about how and why spiritual intention changes brain physiology and how this changed brain perceives the world differently.
 
I am now reading the Eye of the I, and somehow I believe that I'd get even greater impact of these teachings if I were to see the lecture.  That said, even Hawkins emphasizes that the true spiritual teachers focus the energy away from themselves and to the teachings.  I also know not to worry about the past or future - only the present. 
 

Morphic resonance? PhotoMaestro?

Ironically, just as I came home from buying the NID photo kiosk machine to start a business, I get an e-mail from someone in the Boston area interested in buying the Internet domain that I had just purchased to run it (photomaestro.com).
 
I just think it's funny that the domain has been available for so long, photos are nothing new (there's nothing "digital" about this name), and almost immediately after I decide to buy it, there's someone interested in buying it from me.
 
Candidly, I'm not sure I even want to use this name because it's more a concept than a statement of what the product does.  That said, I do lovce the sound of the name!

Bought an NID machine

I just bought an NID machine.   I took a trip to Florida this week to meet the guys, and I decided to do this.  While there is always a bit of self-doubt involved in taking on any risk for me, I walked away feeling that these guys in general are good people who have ambition.
 
For me, this involved trusting people who I might otherwise have shunned.  They don't come from what I'd normally consider "class A" backgrounds.  On the other hand, that's OK.  The path for me is to remove inhibitions and presuppositions and to see people for who they are.
 
The owner of NID seems like a very honest guy.  He's a former school teacher and call center manager.  He had a couple of friends who worked in the Internet access terminal business and the DVD rental dispenser business.  When he heard about the opportunity with photo kiosks, he took out a home equity line of credit and started the business with two of his buddies.
 
What I admire is that these guys are just going for it.  I also think they're ambitious.
 
Candidly, I'm not used to dealing with people like this.  Most of the people I've interacted with were "educated" and "professionals."  To me, these guys operate a bit more like plumbers and contractors.  But, I know part of my own development is not just seeing the good in other people no matter what their backgrounds and also to reinvent my own image of self which has little to do with where I went to school or in what situation I was born.

Monday, July 12, 2004

Digest on thoughts to catch up on blogging...

I have been a real slacker on the blogging. Why? I don't really have a good excuse, but I'll list some lame attempts:

  • Younger daughter's birthday party
  • Another open house
  • A barbeque at a neighbor's house
  • Trip planning for our California vacation
  • Preparation for my Florida trip
  • Watching two DVDs and all the associated "special features" - The Butterfly Effect and Paycheck.

I spoke with my mom on the phone on Saturday. She remains supportive of my taking time off. There's an interesting coincidence. It turns out that my younger daughter has a friend whose mom used to live in the house behind the one we moved away from when I was 7. My mom still remembers that family very well.
I continue to lack motivation to take another high tech job. One of my former coworkers presented me with a job description in product planning for a large European software manufacturer. Another one of my former coworkers forwarded me a job description in marketing for contract assignment. Neither excited me, and in fact, they both turned my stomach a bit.
I purchased Jerusalem artichokes or "sunchokes" on Friday. I'm trying them out now. They are a bit sick, but we'll see whether they help. My diabetes management went to crap last night after having pigged out at our neighbor's barbeque. Also, I had my last piece of this awesome chocolate cake we bought at Costco earlier today. Time to get back on the wagon.
I also "hit" another number on a lottery ticket in Saturday's Lotto drawing. (Only one of the two provided series hit a number, but I still have a streak of hitting a number on every ticket I've purchased.

Friday, July 09, 2004

Hoping to pass down to my kids...

I haven't blogged in a while. Here's a topic that I did want to capture.

I really want to learn to "smell the roses" more. Like many I know, I think I'm focused more on the outcome than the process; more on the destination than the journey. When I started this "breaking out" process, my wife encouraged me to just go off on my own and take a vacation. As I've been thinking about this, I want to do it as a family because I want my kids to grow up with examples of how to enjoy the journey.

Kids are so special. My older daughter thinks its fun to ride on the airplane. I for some reason as a jaded adult think of the airplane as the means to the end...

For example, when I went to see Stonehenge, I think my greatest memory was of the very long train ride to get there and the disappointment that they'd roped off the structure. In hindsight, I wish I'd had the attitude getting to Stonehenge was an adventure and even being close was a privilege! I still remember on a different occasion being in London on a business trip with a girl who was avid reader of history. She got excited just standing in Trafalgar Square, for example. She was excited everywhere we went together. Seeing London again through her eyes was a much more refreshing perspective than I had personally.

We are planning a driving trip down the coast, and I'd very much like to spend time enjoying the sights on the way down - not just for my own experience but to share this with my kids as well.




A related topic is about a lack of respect that I've had for history in general. What I didn't realize is the perspective that history gives you; it really does always repeat itself.

I'm pleased that my older daugher has asked me about history; the Pilgrims, Columbus, etc. I hope to encourage her to enjoy history and more importantly to use it as an opportunity to reengage in history myself.




I think Jung lived at the wrong time. During his life, the world had two world wars and a Great Depression. People were focused more on "security" than on "growth" and perhaps his ideas are more poignant today now that we have the security in this time to focus inward. Even in Jung's time, he saw patients, many of whom were quite successful, that felt an emptiness in their own accomplishments and were "stuck" in their own spiritual growth.

I think his concept of "collective unconscious" is particularly relevant. It's similar to Sheldrake's concept of morphic resonance. It turns out that many of my college colleagues (that I only know peripherally) are making changes... Here's an excerpt from an e-mail I received today...
by the way.. i know of a lot of classmates who are looking to move away and start their lives over. must be that time in our lives. {name omitted) is going to check out portland. {name omitted} and her husband are thinking about vermont (his family is there). {name omitted} was talking maryland a few months ago.. {name omitted} is quitting his job and leaving hi-tech all together! he's packing his bags in boston and heading to U-Texas/Austin to be a prof!

Funny how this is a time of introspection for many with a similar background.



I'm also hoping that we can teach our kids to be less materialistic than the rest of society. I think this iz the direction that America has to go. As the rest of the world "catches up", the disparity between the wealth of America and the poverty in other countries has to equalize. They are going to get higher standards of living, and ours will go down a bit, I think. I think it's our job to ground our kids so that they will embrace these changes rather than fear them!

Summary of unemployment, week 5

Main accomplishments:

  • Continued evaluation of NID. I've got a trip scheduled to Florida
  • PV pitch, draft 1 is complete. Meeting scheduled for 7/16 to present it the first time; also made calls to other potential partners
  • Started socializing with a few friends that I want to do consulting to get leads
  • Ordered a cheesey set of business cards to get consulting business running
  • Locked appointment with accountant for next week
  • Reserved a domain name for the PV opportunity
  • Completed one chapter of psychology review (goal was two)
  • Made it almost all the way through a book titled What Jung Really Said
  • I ran about 7.4 miles Monday, did about 2 hours of elliptical trainer workout on Tuesday, and ran this morning for 5.4 miles, including one 7:28 mile around the high school track.


Other stuff:
  • All three of our cars went to the shop this week - the van got checked before our road trip, the BMW had its brake lining light go off, and the Audi needed to go through its 2 year checkup. Of course, our Plymouth van came out just fine. The BMW had to get other things fixed, and the Audi had a flat. (Personally, I am highly suspicious of the dealership...)
  • This week is our younger daughter's birthday party. We ordered her cake! She is very excited.
  • Shipped both eBay packages.

Dream log - 07/09/2004

Had a dream that my high school came up with an "all time" high performer / valedictorian list. One of my childhood family friends that graduated three years before me was ranked #4 on the list (she went to Harvard). I was not on the list. What was interesting about the list was that one of my high school friends who was not an "honor student" per se was ranked #14, and another person with a relatively low grade point average was ranked #15.

In the reviews, he'd even gotten negative reviews from some of the teachers, but some gave him really positive reviews.

Perhaps the important link here is that this high school friend ultimately became a man of God. After studying at seminary, he became a missionary and pastor. He is now married with two daughters, and he has moved back close to home.

Thursday, July 08, 2004

Dream log - 07/08/2004

I had a number of dreams; this one is the one I remember most vividly.
 
It involved players that I went to college with (lm, es, nw, jo, lr).
 
We're on some trip (like an Olympics competition or something).  It involved a bus.ride, room reservations, and dinner reservations.  The bus driver is arranging logistics on-site with the manager of the hotel..  We are all entertaining ourselves in the mean time (playing cards, etc.)  Details are fuzzy now, but there are a couple of elements.  One person suggests that we all stay in one room; we don't, but we are assigned roommates.  It turns out that I get assigned to live with lm (with whom I roomed in college for many years).  That was a score.  The problem was that I also find out through lm that jo is another one of our roommates.  Not so good.  We have a great room; a river front "solar" with an atrium.  This hotel is kind of like my dorm in college.
 
I find out that es is assigned to a building far away across town - not in our dorm/hotel.  He is trying to contact me.  For some reason, I'm having trouble using my phone to call him, but then I just type in the number. and I'm connected in a 3-way with his existing conversation with lr.  I'm not sure how this happened, and neither are they.  We end up getting disconnected, and I don't think I ever get to share the logistics with him for where we're eating dinner.
 
I also run into nw.  She is with some outside friends that I don't know.  She also wants to sit with us at dinner.  While we are waiting, the owner of the restaurant / hotel is behind a counter, and I notice they have a Tilamook smoker.  They make beef jerky on site!  I get a big huge free sample, and nw sees me eating it thinknig that might be a good breakfast for me the next morning!
 
I'm also later in a situation where I meet some chefs of the facility.  They are making a dessert, and they pile on the ice cream.  They give me some; I explain to them that I'm diabetic and they can't believe it.  One of the chefs then tells me something which I'm trying to remember now.  It is something like "but the rest of you is OK."  I'm not sure what that means now; however, at the time, I simply agreed.
 
I can't really remember the rest.

Wednesday, July 07, 2004

Dream log - 07/07/2004

The farthest back I can remember in this dream, I am a consultant.  I am trying to explain a difficult, but insightful concept.  It takes many pages and thoughts coming together.
 
I'm explaining it to a VP of any industry analyst firm from my past, and he is leading another team now at a client of mine.  After much discusssion and many pages of notes, he procliams that he normally wouldn't continue this because of the time involved, but he sees where I'm going.  Unfortunately, his team has other commitments that afternoon, but he'd like to pick it up the next day.  Honestly, I don't have everything together myself, and the time might be useful to help crystallize the thoughts.  I remember in my past writing a paper that might have been really useful before.
 
I am wearing a suit.  The building is a high rise building, and I have an office there somehow.  I was meeting with the client (reeally the analyst firm VP) where I think they too have offices on the 4th floor.   (I worked on the 4th floor of a high rise four jobs ago.  I have another prospective client in an office building across the street, and I have to choose between using the time to prepare more for this meeting or to see the other prospective client.  We are in an urban environment.  It is a sunny day out the windows.
 
On my way across the street, I see a potential assistant (female) talking to another woman.  I can't remember who it was now, but in the dream, I remember this potential assistant as someone from my past (high school colleague that I wasn't close to...).  I ask her if she'll come with me to this client call, and it turns out that after discussion with the person she is talking to, it turns out she has nothing better to do.
 
I then run back, grab some other materials for the meeting, grab my phone headset (not sure why), and somehow recruit two other guys to go meet the other folks with me.  Everyone gets ready, and we're supposed to meet by the elevators.  Everyone is there, except the woman (who turns out now to be a former coworker and now wife of a close friend in California.)  So, anyway, I tell the other guys to wait there for her to return, and I go down to the second floor to make some more preparations, and I'm deciding whether to leave my headset in the lounge.  At first, I plug it into the a headset to a phone in the lounge, and then I decide it might get stolen and I take it with me.  Then, I decide to go to the bathroom.
 
On the way to the bathroom, I see the woman (former assistant).  She is wearing a red dress and is done going to the bathroom.  I tell her that the others are waiting in the elevator bank on the fourth floor, and that she should meet them there.  Somehow, though, I "know" that she just decides to wait for me to finish going to the bathroom and we'll go up the stairs together.
 
In the bathroom, I go in, and the toilet is flooded close to the brim.  The toilet is somewhat high so the only way I can use the toilet is to stand far away and "arc" my urine into the toilet.  At first, things go fine.  Then, the toilet fills and it starts to leak a bit, not a lot.  But then, my urine loses "momentum" and I end up now with a small "arc" and I pee all over my suit pants and the bottom of my suit jacket.
 
Panic.  The suit is wool, and I think it might dry.  Being careful not to leave lint on the suit, I try wiping it in front of the mirror.  No help.
 
Somehow, though, I have changes of clothes with me (also khaki pants, jeans, multiple shirts, ties, etc.).  I then proceed to try on many combinations of clothes, even layering them at times.  (How I think I can really layer these clothes on a sunny day is now beyond me...)  I am now trying these clothon for what seems to be an eternity.  (The reality is that I'm not really in there that long...)  Finally, I jump outside the bathroom and tell the woman (who I knew would be patiently waiting outside the bathroom) to get the other guys, which she does.  They arrive, and I explain what happens.  They are very sympathetic.

At this point, they're trying to analyze what happened, trying to make sure that the clothes I decided not to wear don't get urine-soaked on the floor, and we're trying to determine whether the clothes I am wearing are going to be appropriate.  I'm wearing now more hip jeans, a hip shirt, and some brown buck leather shoes.  Kind of cool casual.  Not totally unacceptal for this urban environment, but not what I normally do.
 
OK - then my kids wake us up making lots of noise...  I can't fall back asleep to continue this dream.
 
What happened? 
  • Was I on the verge of a breakthrough with this first client only to lose focus to work on something else?  The insight on that first opportunity was good; he knew it and I knew it, but it was undeveloped.  Perhaps, this is meaning that my PV project shouldn't take backseat to the more general consulting work I'm thinking about at this point.
  • Who were these people who were helping me on the new opportunity?  I don't remember who they were, but they were people from my past who were not close...  Perhaps, this just means that others will be willing to help me on the "new" opportunity, but that the "first" opportunity is something I need to do myself.
  • Why was I changing clothes so much?  If I had all these clothes, why didn't I just decide what to wear and go back upstairs to meet my team?  Perhaps, I'm not figuring out exactly what image I want to portray or what I want to do in this second opportunity.
  • What is the significance of the headset, and why was I indecisive?  To me, headsets might be symbolic of cold calling.  Perhaps I'm deciding if I really want to do this, and I end up deciding to do it before peeing all over myself...  What's interesting is that I'm deciding whether to take it with me on the new opportunity.  The question I have right now is whether I need to do cold calling on the PV project...
Either way, I get the feeling that this dream is very important.  I wish my kids weren't so loud...

Monday, July 05, 2004

Trying this out - goals for the week

I don't want to make this like "a job," but perhaps I'll take more comfort knowing that I set goals and met them.

Here are the top "goals" for the week.

  • Restart running program. Run 25 miles this week.
  • Do a pitch for the PV location
  • Go through 2 chapters of the Psychology study guide


Secondary goals remain:
  • Keep the blogging up
  • Meditate once per day
  • Go through one yoga videotape
  • Check out the Fred Meyer Fuji photo kiosk


I'm not sure if doing this will make me feel better, but we'll see.

Sunday, July 04, 2004

Movies I haven't seen yet...

Now that I have lots of time, I've realized that I haven't been taking advantage of it enough. I have always liked seeing films, and there is a backlog of films that I want to see...



I also want to see The Bourne Supremacy when it comes out...

This isn't a priority, but I feel somewhat "lame" that I haven't really done that much "fun" stuff in the four weeks I've been off!

Keep the focus alive - being practical is a means to an end and not the end itself...

OK, I've been reflecting now on my 4-week "sabbatical," and I've realizedt that I've started losing "focus" on the spiritual growth and exploration and perhaps getting a bit too focused on the "logistics of life."

I realized this, as I spent much of the day thinking about my PV project. Our plans today for our July 4th got sidetracked; a day at Remlinger Farms turned into a "nap day" for my kids and my wife. I used the time to pondered what a "pitch" would look like for my PV project.

The "nap day" should have been anticipated yesterday. Last night, we went to the family of one of my older daughter's friends, and we stayed there until about 9pm. Our daughters then goofed off, didn't go right to bed, and proceeded to wake up at 6:30am this morning. When we arrived at Remlinger Farms at 11am, we opted to turn around because our younger daughter had just awoken from a car nap, and didn't want to get out of the van. On the way home, our older daughter fell asleep in the car. It's a good thing we didn't try to force a day of "fun." I have a feeling our trip down the coast is going to be cut short... :)

In any case, I'd say more time has gone into the pragmatic sides at this point - thinking through a consulting gig, the NID photo thing, and my PV project. This is fine, but I can't lose focus on what I'm doing those things for - in particular to give me time to really seek what I really want to do. Those things are just the means to an end; not the end itself.

Not only is my diabetes management program waning, but I also think I'm losing focus on the meditation. My wife took a call from a real estate agent last week that planned on showing our house today at 11am. That real estate agent never showed up! Also, our house was shown yesterday, and we heard nothing! I do believe that I need to continue to meditate on the home front, and I haven't been doing this enough...

Saturday, July 03, 2004

Lottery, still somewhat beating the odds...

I matched a number again (my ticket was 20 34 38 41 43, mega ball = 03). The 38 matched. My wife bought a ticket and got no matches.

So far (knock on wood), I have not purchased a lottery ticket that hasn't matched a number...

I think I'm going to rest for a while though, as someone won the mega millions jackpot last night, and the pot is back down to $10M.

Friday, July 02, 2004

Reconsider NID?

OK, here are the counterparts to my NID Not For Me post...


  • NID is clearly set up for independent operators. The incumbent kiosk operators (Fujifilm, Kodak, Sony) have clearly targeted existing photo labs. Sony, for example, doesn't even ship built-in credit card authorization or remote monitoring today.

  • They already have marketing materials and business model. The reality is that while I feel confident I could even do a better job than them at doing all of this, timing is an issue. They're 3 months ahead, and they've been focused on it. It'd be a side project for me at best given everything else I'm focusing on.

  • Better vision for where they want to take this beyond printing photos and cutting CD's. They know that the kiosk is really an Internet front-end, and are using the terminals as a front-end to sell photo-based T-shirts, bugs, and other tchatchke. They also have the vision of how they might use these as reservation front-ends for rental cars, restaurants, etc., or perhaps as a front-end for advertising spots.



More food for thought...

Summary of unemployment, week 4

The time is just flying by. I can't believe it's been 4 weeks already.

This week, I feel good about:


  • Making progress on PV concept. Still work to go, but it could be a decent deal...

  • Started laying groundwork for consulting practice. I spoke to a lawyer about setting up an LLC, got some accountant names, and came up with a name...

  • Teaching my older daughter to play poker. She is really enjoying it, and she's pretty lucky, too!

  • Reading a psychology primer. Fascinating.

  • Transferring cash into better money market account; speaking with financial advisor

  • Doing first eBay listings. I put both an old laptop and an old CD-ROM drive up for sale on eBay, and they're getting bids.

  • Our new real estate agent is driving our home sale process well. Our house is now "staged," and it looks terrific. Our Web listing also looks great. I really believe we're on the path to a house sale now!



I feel less good about:

  • Exercise program. I haven't been that good about keeping it up this week.

  • Overall diabetes management. I just haven't been focusing my energy there...

  • Backlog of stuff I want to look at...

    • Further development of psychic skills with the Sanders book

    • Read the book about Jung

    • Vince Flynn's Memorial Day

    • Yoga videos and books lent to me by a friend

    • AAA guidebooks to start planning a trip

  • I'm still feeling a bit scattered even though I'm making some progress on all areas



Other stuff:

  • Went to the 7/1 Mariners game against the Rangers. The kid (Travis Blackley) looked good. We actually had an "onslaught" of offense given the team's recent performance.

  • Bought fireworks for July 4th. It should be fun to pyro out with the kids this Sunday

  • Visited low carb store and wrote some reviews of the products.

  • Family portraits...


7/2 - lots of random activity

I'm kind of tired, but I'm behind on blogging. Some of what happened today...


  • Verified with Citibank that we're now set up to receive 5% cash back on grocery stores, drug stores, gas stations, etc. When we originally signed up, the program was only for 1% cash back. The cards were supposed to automatically upgrade themselves effective September 1, 2004, but they granted me a "referral" so that I can receive this benefit early...

  • Work on the "stealth project." Last night, I socialized my idea for the project name with my wife, and she liked it. For this blog, I'll call it "PV."

    • Spoke with an equipment distributor for PV. It's clear that they are very much in the mind set of their old, traditional business - not the new world.

    • Spoke with a sample location owner for my stealth project. While the location owner started out a bit skeptical, after hearing the pitch, he ultimately agreed to take a meeting the week of July 12th.

    • Did a bit of "field research." I have good benchmarks.

  • Took family portraits. The photographers are all digital now, so we got to see the digital proofs immediately. There were some cute pictures of the kids, but the ones with the whole family were kind of lame. We ended up spending $100 to get more pictures of the kids and one 3x5 snapshot of the family. Oh well.

  • Got guidebooks from AAA. Just planning for the trip ahead!

  • Had to restock the yogurt, yogurt cheese, flax seed supplies.

  • Bought Knowledge Adventure Jumpstart 1st Grade software for my older daughter and installed it on the kid's PC.

  • Played a bit more poker with my older daughter. Since learning to play initially, she has really been asking every day to play more.


Thursday, July 01, 2004

Insight - be happy that you're "alive"

I was telling my therapist about a concern that I'm a bit all over the map. (I've tried to articulate a method to the madness.)

I've told him about business ideas, my psi experiments, my reading into psychology, teaching my daughter to play poker, etc. I've also told him about my concern that I haven't been focused enough in any one area to see a light at the end of the tunnel.

Where he encouraged me is that after hearing many of my ideas, he commented that he was imnpressed with the way my mind works, and he told me that I shouldn't worry about an end point as long as I feel "alive."

That is very inspiring. I do actually feel quite "alive." I am enjoying the time.

NID not for me...

Yesterday, I spent some time with the NID person on the phone.

He is planning to follow up with me next week. I am going to say "no." Here are my top stated concerns:


  • Company management. The company founders have never run a business before and have no functional expertise in running a franchise. These are former Compaq employees. The scary guy tried to divert my attention from this by pointing me to the Kiosk vendor's Web page.

  • No protection from downside of their going under. The only answer here was that if they went under, I'd get to deal with the software company directly. This unfortunately is another small, privately held company (Touchpoint).

  • Premium on sales side. The machines cost about $14K, and their franchise fee is $25K per machine. They are charging roughly $11K for their sales efforts and the for the setup of a merchant acount. This isn't worth it. I can easily set up my own merchant account, and I could probably just find my own Seattle-based guy who used to work in the ATM or phone booth industry that knows the local markets better than the folks out Floria and commission him $10K to find me 5 sites. The value isn't there.



In any case, I've now got my own ideas about where to take a related concept. I am going to go "stealth" in this blog at this point.

Lottery numbers - somewhat beating the odds

This week, I am still slightly beating the odds. (Recall, I bought two lottery tickets over the weekend.) I got 1 number correct on Mega Millions, and 1 number correct on each of two Lotto series. The probability of doing this was 42.1% * 31.8% = 13.4%. Slightly better than 1 in 7.

(The last time I bought a Mega Millions ticket, I got two numbers right which has odds of slightly better than 1 in 14...).

Again, the expectation here is that this isn't going to make me rich. I just want to continue going with the flow. I did get a better feeling about Lotto (which is why I added it to the mix) than I did about Mega Millions, and while the result was the same (I lost $1 in both cases), I did succeed in beating the odds in Lotto (succeeded with a 31.6% chance of success) moreso than over Mega Millions (succeeded with a 42.1% chance of success).




I matched one number in Tuesday's Mega Millions drawing (the number 10 - my wife's birthday).

In Mega Millions, there are a total of 52 numbers and 5 right answers, plus the "mega ball" which is 52 numbers and 1 right answer. (Total possibilities = 52!/5!47! * 52!/1!51!=52*51*50*49*48/(5*4*3*2*1)*52 = 135,145,920

Here's the breakdown
  • 1 number right
    • one number right from set of 5 right answers, 4 numbers wrong from a set of 47 wrong answers, while getting one number wrong from a set of 51 wrong answers...
      5!/(1!4!) * 47!/(4!43!) * 51!/(1!50!) = 5*47*46*45*44/4/3/2*51 = 45,483,075
    • zero numbers right from a set of 5 right answers, 5 numbers wrong from a set of 47 wrong answers, while getting one number right from a set of 1 right answers...
      5!/(0!5!) * 47!/(5!42!) * 1 = 1*47*46*45*44*43/5/4/3/2*1= 1,533,939
    • Total= 45,483,075 + 1,533,939 = 47,017,014
  • 2 numbers right
    • two numbers right from set of 5 right answers, 3 numbers wrong from a set of 47 wrong answers, while getting one number wrong from a set of 51 wrong answers...
      5!/(2!3!) * 47!/(3!44!) * 51!/(1!50!) = 5*4/2*47*46*45/3/2*51 = 8,269,650
    • one number right from a set of 5 right answers, 4 numbers wrong from a set of 47 wrong answers, while getting one number right from a set of 1 right answers...
      5!/(1!4!) * 47!/(4!43!) * 1 = 5*47*46*45*44/4/3/2*1= 891,825
    • Total= 8,269,650 + 891,825 = 9,161,475
  • 3 numbers right
    • three numbers right from set of 5 right answers, 2 numbers wrong from a set of 47 wrong answers, while getting one number wrong from a set of 51 wrong answers...
      5!/(3!2!) * 47!/(2!45!) * 51!/(1!50!) = 5*4/2*47*46/2*51 = 551,310
    • two numbers right from a set of 5 right answers, 3 numbers wrong from a set of 47 wrong answers, while getting one number right from a set of 1 right answers...
      5!/(2!3!) * 47!/(3!44!) * 1 = 5*4/2*47*46*45/3/2*1 = 162,150
    • Total= 551,310 + 162,150 = 703,460
  • 4 numbers right
    • four numbers right from set of 5 right answers, 1 number wrong from a set of 47 wrong answers, while getting one number wrong from a set of 51 wrong answers...
      5!/(4!1!) * 47!/(1!46!) * 51!/(1!50!) = 5*47*51 = 11,985
    • three numbers right from a set of 5 right answers, 2 numbers wrong from a set of 47 wrong answers, while getting one number right from a set of 1 right answers...
      5!/(3!2!) * 47!/(2!45!) * 1 = 5*4/2*47*46/2*1 = 10,810
    • Total= 11,985 + 10,810 = 22,795
  • 5 numbers right
    • five numbers right from set of 5 right answers, while getting one number wrong from a set of 51 wrong answers, or 51!
    • four numbers right from a set of 5 right answers, 1 numbers wrong from a set of 47 wrong answers, while getting one number right from a set of 1 right answers...
      5!/(4!1!) * 47!/(1!46!) * 1 = 5*47 = 235
    • Total= 51 + 235 = 286
  • Plus the right answer = 1


So, the total number of combinations of getting 1 or more right are 47,017,014 + 9,161,475 + 703,460 + 22,795 + 286 + 1 = 56,905,031.

The probability of getting one or more number right is therefore 56,905,031 / 135,145,920 = 42.1%




An interesting calculation is to figure out the odds of winning anything in Mega Millions.
  • Getting a the mega ball with none other right is 1,533,939 / 135,145,920 = 1.135% (or 1 in 88)
  • Getting the mega ball with 1 other right is 891,825 / 135,145,920 = 0.6599% (or 1 in 152)
  • Getting the mega ball wrong with 3 numbers right is 551,310 / 135,145,920 = 0.4079% (or 1 in 245)
  • Getting the mega ball right and 2 other right is 162,150 / 135,145,920 = 0.1200% (or 1 in 833)
  • Getting the mega ball wrong and 4 other right is 11,985 / 135,145,920 = 0.008868% (or 1 in 11,276)
  • Getting the mega ball right and 3 other right is 10,810 / 135,145,920 = 0.0079988% (or 1 in 12,502)
  • Getting the mega ball right and 4 others right is 235 / 135,145,920 = 0.000017389% (or 1 in 575089)
  • Getting the mega ball wrong and 5 others right is 51 / 135,145,920 = 0.000003774% (or 1 in 2649920)
  • Finally, getting the right answer is 1 / 135,145,920...

So, the chances of winning anything is 1,533,939 + 891,825 + 551,310 + 162,150 + 11,985 + 10,810 + 235 + 51 + 1) / 135145920 = 2.340% (or 1 in 43)!




In last night's Lotto drawing, I matched 1 number each on the two series that they provided. In series A, I got 22. In series B, I got 44. (The drawing was 8 11 22 31 36 44)

While I was somewhat disappointed that I didn't do better, I made the observation that I got one number out of 6 on both series in the Lotto. There's only a 31.8% chance of doing that!

Using my refound probability training courtesy of my MIT math major friend, I can now show the work here:

In Lotto, the total number of possibilities are 49 choose 6. Or 49!/(6!43!) = 49*48*47*46*45*44/(6*5*4*3*2*1) = 13,983,816.

The number of possibilities to get one number right from a set of 6 and 5 wrong answers from a set of 43 are 6!/(1!5!) * 43!/(5!38!) = 6*43*42*41*40*39/(5*4*3*2*1) = 5,775,588

Then, I've got to repeat that calculation for getting 2, 3, 4, 5, and 6 numbers right.
  • 2 - 6!/(2!4!) * 43!(4!39!) = 6*5/(2*1)*43*42*41*40/(4*3*2*1) = 1,851,150

  • 3 - 6!/(3!3!) * 43!/(3!40!) = 6*5*4/(3*2*1)*43*42*41/(3*2*1) = 246,820

  • 4 - 6!/(4!2!) * 43!/(2!41!) = 6*5/(2*1)*43*42/(2*1) = 13,545

  • 5 - 6!/(5!1!) * 43!/(1!42!) = 6*43 = 258
  • 6 - the right answer = 1


So, the total number of chances to get 1 or more numbers right = 5,775,588 + 1,851,150 + 246,820 + 13,545 + 258 + 1 = 7,887,362.

Therefore, the probability of getting at least number right is 7,887,362 / 13,983,816 = 56.4% - slightly better than a coin flip. The chances of this happening twice on one slip are 56.4% ^ 2 = 31.8%.

Now the owner of hillwork.com, hillwork.net, hillwork.org, hillwork.us

Hillwork is the name I'm going to give to a consulting practice. It's the part of work I want to do. I may have written here that I spent some time doing a bit of marathon running.

Preparation for the marathon itself requires some training. You start with building a base. Then, you move to hill work to build a foundation for strength and power. As you get closer to the race, then you start your speedwork. The problem with hillwork is that it saps your legs, and you don't want to do it too close to a race.

Back to the corporate world, existing companies that want to enter new businesses often can't muster up the internal resources to build the proper foundations. They may have an inkling of what they want to do with some supporting data points (base), and they may have the resources to devote to the launching the business should they move forward (speed work). The challenge comes in the middle - how to really evaluate the business from multiple angles, look at the "hills to climb" and figure out how to run up them before dedicating resources to launching a new venture. Climbing these hills can sap the energy of key individuals responsible for leading other parts of the business.

This is where my services at Hillwork Group / Hillwork Consulting / Hillwork Inc / etc. will come in. I purchased the hillwork.com / hillwork.net / hillwork.org / hillwork.us domains late on Tuesday afternoon after I had the epiphany for the name on Tuesday morning. For now, I'll just plan to park them.